One of the ideas that we have rarely subjected to examination and study is the idea of the human greatness. For a very long time it was the only idea in my life, or more accurately speaking it was the only feeling that got me going through my most difficult and darkest phases of my life, when your identity was in crisis there was not much to fall back on, other than this sense of innate human greatness, my greatness. With the starting of this blog when I was finally able to let go of all of my feelings, supposedly the true emotions, and other ideas on life and relationships, I made my a pledge to myself to only adhere to this deep feeling that we call life, the life force. Life force is a phenomenon that keeps us all going, that wrings thorough all living, non living things alike, this life force is a deep focus of the Khalil Gibran’s work notably “The Prophet” perhaps the greatest work on spirituality outside of religious scriptures.
everything is alive on the massive timescale of life be that mountains, cold dead barren planets, or empty Space itself
The idea is on a timescale that is much larger than that of human it operates on everything the mountains, the barren looking planets cold dead in the night, everything is alive on this scale and teeming up with activity, that we have only so much begin to understand recently through scientific studies. Human progress as much as it has been about technology, science, it also has been of a progress of our perception of the universe & life itself, in the developing awareness of things such as space itself which was supposed to be dead and empty, now we know how alive it is, so much that life without space is impossible.
there is only ever one reason for doing anything, second and third reasons are always a misdirection
The singular feeling of being alive is the primary determinant that we are looking for in all of our adventures, relationships and vocation, when there is nothing to fall back on, there is always this life force which you could look up to raise yourself. For me focusing on this one feeling of being alive was my way out of the imaginary hell. It was not an easy journey for me it meant coming face to face with my greatest fears, my greatest desires, the greatest facets of my personal identity, the sexual perception itself. While all of that has been a great experience, but a job is not completely done unless you really subject your core ideas to your new found belief, its as daring an adventure thats worth of any movie adaptation, it has got its own thrill, turn of events, uncertainty, the cruel ending and the happy turns. For me that was “the idea of personal greatness”. As my dear friend “Ahmed Qureshi” once quoted me some great Chinese philosopher “There is only ever one reason for doing anything, second and third reasons are always a misdirection”.
learnt to make new friends cause you wanted to, cause you felt it from deep within, find meaning in my work, that was not there initially, and then to trust all of it come what may
Feeling alive was that greatest truth in my life, everything after that is just reduced to he sense of play. Only then I was able to address this notion of personal greatness that has been driving me entire life. The experiment that I started was to put myself in a situation which was far from my identity entirely under new circumstances so I became a Bar-back and later Bartender, coming from a Muslim family background it was the most alien thing that I could do, the promise that I made to myself was that even if after all of this my sense of greatness survived I will accept it or I will let it go for good. Being in one of the lowest paid jobs, massive hard-work from the start of the shift till the end of it, and then this constant struggle inside of you that you are doing something wrong was the acid test that I really needed to strip away all that was never mine. I learnt to make new friends cause you wanted to, cause you felt it from deep within, find meaning in my work, that was not there initially, and then to trust all of it come what may.
as we cannot measure love, compare love, describe love or dispense love that is not of our own making, it is also true for human greatness
Now after having let go this sense of greatness for a very long time, feeling so ordinary yet happy, relaxed and being contented with myself, I discovered life so much simple is it not for other peoples ideas being forced upon you, only if it is for the simple courage of human heart. Now I really feel like saying that idea of human greatness is essential to every human being, it’s almost as primary a force in the making of ourselves as much as love is, as much life force is to all of us. As we cannot measure love, compare love, describe love or dispense love that is not of our own making, it is also true for this idea of human greatness no matter in what form or measure it comes to you. But what we cannot do is compare it with otherselves, with other peoples ideas, it’s an absolute disaster to do that cause at its worst it will just rip you fro your core identity. Greatness always flows from some deep sense of calm it’s never hurried or painful, its blissful at its best and also so much comfortable with the feelings of greatness in others too.
Letting go my need of being compared to others has been the greatest liberating experience of my life, it has pulled all plugs on many facets of my personality such as feeling good, connected, empathetic, rightful, deserving of good things etc. Though in one fell sweep motion it has also stripped me of my entire creative ability for now, the business of idea making and the other traits that I so much prided myself upon, it has all been replaced with a deep sense of calm and innate confidence. It was really frightening in the start, over time a simple truth came to dawn over me that all of my latent abilities were built on this idea of greatness which was not even really mine, the moment I pulled it all away, everything has fallen away with it, the only thing that remains here now is me.
idea of human greatness is essentially fundamental to the human nature as much as love as much as feeling alive is
What has enabled me to understand all of this is the modern science, human identity is essentially a construct like any other physical structure like a building, like the geological layers of a planet, the weather system of a rain-forest, the intricate complexities of an ecosystem, that all essentially is human, our brain, our psychology, our sense of experience and identity too. That’s what makes all of so unique an important in the greater context of life. The idea of human greatness is essentially fundamental to the human nature as much as love as much as feeling alive is to ourselves to be able to function properly. What greatness truly means in real life is being alive to your possibilities, being aware of your potential, taking all those small steps that take you in the direction of your heart, a belief is the ability of gauging your won path in life and now on top of all of that is an acceptance of yourself.
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